oh dear..

how can u be friends with someone u hate being around with.. with someone that just down right annoying. i try to say that i dont hate him but sometimes i do..

im so pathetic.

LOL. gaga.

semi opaw

this is how i look now. i must remember. i got my haircut on may 1 2013. lets see how long it takes to grow my bangs again...

cute cat i saw at the side of the road. look it has its tongue out. lol.

bwee!

i sometimes hate checking out my fb

i sometimes hate now to check my facebook. i see people and people mostly i know and i get annoyed of how disconnected i am. ow well... who cares.

gonna miss my shaggy rugged do. cut my hair. now im semiopaw. hehe.

my bio clocks off.

belated post. just wanna say that my bio clocks off i usually sleep past 12 midniyt. and thats on regulaaar days.

 

i now like reading books too..

s cool graphic art i found in 9gag. cute noh.

model wanna be

ive always been a very art oriented person and i believe that  i am somewhat creative. ive always been fascinated by avant garde art+fashion. thats y im fond of gaga. one thing that also intrigues me is androgynous models. its very cutting edge and just gives more graphic impact.

this is andrej pejic. and yes thats a man.


bruce veneda. filipino androgenous model

azmarie livingstone from antm.

just thought that if i were to do modeling, (which is a far far possibility) id prefer to be in the androgynous niche.
in this photo, im not wearing makeup. just this cloth around my head to model.
facts.
took the photo myself. so its basically an artsy selfie.
yes i have a weird body. i  have sunken chest, look it up.
no Photoshop done. just adjusted color, contrast, brightness and cropping.

and about my tree thing. haven't added leaves for about a week. next time i have to do lots of leaves.

another thing from now on ill be adding hash-tags to mention topics of my posts.

#modeling #art #androgynous #tyra #gaga

embarassing. net cafe incedent.

in a net cafe i accidentally kicked the switch and a line of computers went off. embarrassed and angered both at the same time. like why the hell would they place a switch where it could be easily kicked?! all i could do was apologize to the people and look like a complete idiot. fuck! grrr.

profile pic

just for save...

artworks and schoolwork

 

its already summer but still got shool requirements to finish off. still got ce90 and thesis paperworks to do.

 

the edited version of my original tree. not completly done. still have to add more leafs and paint the glass crytals to gold.

 

this is how we make the leaves for the tree.

 

tada. better ryt?

feeling artsy. like it?

look at what ive been working on for the past 2 days. its only half done. but u get the idea. a half mask made out of copper wire.

bummer

ngek change the mechanics of my tree improvement.
cut off all the old metal leaves.
bored of only putting one leaf a day, so its now happening by batch since i sometimes forget to add a leaf onm a day. for example i add 5 or 10 yellow leaves if i feel like it in a day.
colors are only red, orange and yellow.
changes the color of my base to chocolate brown. sorry got no pic.

gagas bum and armadillo shoes

today is a yellow day. yellow for happy. mostly because im not so busy. but i was so annoyed when i got a rid on the pedicad. this stupid kid did not put me to my right spot. i hate him. big stupid fucking dick. i hope he gets karma. i could just smack him in the face. anyhow today's a yellow day. nothing more to say... smile.

back

am back. long time since i last blogged. as a recap what happened last week.. a lot. but school mostly. been very busy and very annoyed so my week was terribly red. forgot to add leaves to instead just added about 10. most were red some were orange. today is a orange day because i was able to finish most of my drawing and meet my instructor for the subject to give me an inc. but im annoyed that i cant see my grades because my akan account has been expired, that of i forgot my password. so to make it short, im ending with saying my day is orange.

lost files. bye bye.

i feel like dying. that's how id like to describe my day. reasons:
1. we went to iligan, went to interspace to ask if anyone can fix our PC hard drive. man says its unrepairable and the powers totally burned out. so shit, i just lost very important files. specially out thesis pictures. i know my OA thesis partners will surely get disappointed.
2. received another failing grade at our exam for 161. like comon like how dumb and stupid can i be? its so hard for me to comprehend how these formulas for designing beams and columns work. im really so not meant to be a civil engineer. math and physics are just not for me. why couldn't i get nursing or bio instead... or a course related to English or art? imagine 12 out of 50? god im so stupid. and those point were if not for the help of my classmate faizah. yah. she made me copy. i would've gotten zero. i really did not study for the exam. the night before i was cramming and so problematic.

days like this i want to really run away. want would be ow so good, if i could just fly somewhere far like new york and pursue a life as an artist. wouldn't that be a lot more simple. i hate when i feel so stupid and so much of a failure. this is one of those many many days.

at least i was able to save a copy of our thesis first three chapters in my blog. that way i don't have to repeat typing everything. but still, GOD, im so fucked, what about the pictures. i hope my brother can help me recover them. ya Allah why do you make me like this, why do you make me so weak in all my suffering. am i really that bad of a person... maybe perhaps this is your sign, giving me a shitty and pretentious life.

days rated as a brown. somebody please help me. im so busy.

akward seeing people that know me

today was an extremely tiresome day.
the day started with me waking up with a terrible stomach ache. i seriously had to take a dump. and our overnyt was not at all fruitfull, well in my part that is.
we immediately went to consult our adviser for our thesis and it was like forever before we were able to leave. almost 3 hours because by companions kept asking redundant and commonsense questions. cant they figure it out themselves? me being a smart ass.
then i had to go down town from msu to canvas materials for our thesis. i havent slept, havent brushed and havent bathed. disgusting i know. i feel so oily right now.
then when i got back to msu i had to go directly to our college to work on our MCR tiles. but only one of my teamyts was there. we ended up just painted our finished tiles instead of making new ones. atleast we were able to do something...
so now im so haggard and dirty. still have to wash my nails. they're painted green.
and again i felt akward today. please stop puting me in a position like that. my clasmayts from highschool saw me and kept calling out my name loudly. slightly annoyed. like how was i supposed to act. couldnt they see i was avoiding tyhem?

this days rated as an orange. its march 8 so there has to be 8 new leaves on my tree. going home now to rest.

the story of autumn

this is the story of autumn.
as a reminder of how i lost in an art competition,  i choose to keep this crap, improve it, and put it into.

starting march 1, 2013 i'll be adding new leaves on this bonsai tree made from recycled materials. the colors will rate my day:

brown- i feel like dying day
red- angry and sad day. full of disappointments.
orange- tiresome and annoyed day
yellow- a okay day. and that's in the negative side.

so the more light colors on the tree means the tree is still somehow still alive. BOOM. how is that for symbolism...

this is actually a late post...